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Depression

Am I allowed to claim that I am depressed in writing form? ‘Cause I totally am. For more or less three years. I feel like I’ve been floating around the sea and I can’t see the horizon anywhere I look. I don’t know where the fuck I am heading.

While depression might be a good thing (I mean, some of the greatest artists were depressed, right?), I am not that creative. So, I try to do a few activities to get my mind off things:

1. Try to connect with people. However, at 27, I don’t think anybody my age would want to make new friends. You know, real friends. Actual people who will help you when you need them and vice-versa. So, I guess I’m failing miserably and it doesn’t help the depression. I made a few friends, though. I guess, that’s enough and I should quit complaining.

Some folks I met through Tumblr.
With Sam (as Belle) and Helga (as a Sim)

2. Going to shows and parties. I’ve been doing this heavily since before depression (BD) and it sorta reminds me of how lonely I am but at the same time my friends are there. So, yeah, I don’t know how to feel about this.

I’m in this photo with The Strangeness, trust me.

Ciudad.

3. Watch comedy. With the exception of a few dramas (Madmen, Breaking Bad, Boardwalk Empire, and, American Horror Story) I watch sitcoms exclusively.

This was my Halloween costume,

“First of all, we have a team photo”

I shoulda went as Jesse Pinkman, but, I forgot.

I like American Horror Story while I don’t generally like horrors

They keep me entertained. I keep laughing. I keep forgetting how alone and lonely I am. They also remind me about it. I guess, this wasn’t a bright idea too? I like laughing, though. So, I don’t mind.

Patrice Oneal kinda minds, but, really doesn’t

4. Write songs. While I said above that I am not very creative (or good at doing this), I still enjoy it quite a lot. I think this might be the only thing that doesn’t seem like a complete failure for me, but, when Mike Kinsella is your peg, you might really get depressed ’cause he’s really good.

So yeah, I just try to do the things I enjoy and milk the crap out of it. ‘Cause there’s no sense in staying depressed if you’re not good at it.

Photo credits: Mij Bautista, Paul Wenceslao, Shinji Manlangit, and VLC Media Player

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Filed under: about me, american horror story, awkward., breaking bad, ciudad, depression, it's always sunny in philadelphia, mike kinsella, owen, patrice oneal, the strangeness, tumblr

Charles, the Happy Fan

On my way home from Tapsi ni Vivian last night, I kept thinking about how I was going to write about the events of the epic epic night. The night has been marked in my calendar since I first saw this poster and have been looking forward to it like a spoiled brat waiting for Christmas.

Anyway, the bottom line is, I can’t put anything to words. Amazing would be an understatement so I’ll just post some pictures.

If there is one thing I really love about Ciudad, it’s that they never changed since day 1. Their first single gets on top of the charts, they’re still the same. 10 years later, they still set up their own gear, add you on Facebook instead of sending you a message to like their fan page instead, and since that album is no longer available, they burn copies and give them out for free. I think I just described what an Indie band is.

Filed under: ang bandang shirley, band, ciudad, facebook, friends, gig, music, photos, twisted halo